It took me the longest to finish this.. I wanted to quit half way through the challenge.. I made myself continue.. I always quit things when I start to feel discouraged... Love, Life, and Relationships are always a touchy subject for me... I never really felt loved or appreciated by my peers.. So outside of my loving family, I never experienced love...
Those I gave my heart to landed me to where I am now.. I won't say I am bitter.. I will just say that I heartless... I don't think from this point on I will be able to open my heart again to another soul... I feel that my heart is an organ that has to be strongly protected...
This challenged made me think back to the things that I lost. This challenged made me feel a little negative toward those who hurt me. Those who said they loved me and showed me different. Opening up the wounds that took me over the edge.. Doing this Challenge depressed me. It also made me angry and frustrated..
This challenge taught me that love can be good, bad, and down right ugly..
I hope that one day everything will change for me. I learned that I do believe in love.. It is just that there are those who don't know the kind of love that I am searching for.. So as I end this, love is so over-rated... I give props to those who still believe in it.. I give congratulations to those who found it and still can be with those that they love... Continue to love people.. All because I gave up on it.. It doesn't mean that any of you should change your minds about it... Love and Blessings to you all...
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I know this was a tough one for you--myself included. Some of the things I can look back and laugh about; others still cause me to well up with tears and get pissed. But I do applaud you for riding out the waves and everyone else who did when they were about to just not continue. I love you, Tracy...and I am very proud of you.
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