I stooped to a level...I didn't even want to go...

Everyone knows  I am the type that tries to make everyone Happy... I break my neck for all those that I am close to...  Well I put myself in a position that caused me to get my feelings really HURT!!  I don't mind helping people.. That is the way I was brought up.. So when people come to me for favors and I have the time, money, or etc...I tend to help.. If I truly know they need it. I must be just a sucker.. 

Well I am having a hard time adjusting to the lack of  money.. Yea, I've been broke before... I just NEVER been this broke.. Broke to where not even my mother or father can help me. It's sad... 

Well a few years back, I helped someone.. I mean BIG TIME... They needed money for their light bill so they could move.. I had it.. Hey this is  my friend.. I would be blessed for it right... I told them don't even worry about paying me back. I just know who to come to when I will need help myself.  They agreed and said "If you ever need anything.. Don't be afraid to ask..." 

Yesterday I was taking them up for that offer... I paid my bills on Friday and didn't have money for anything else or for the week. So I called them up.. Well I did and they didn't answer.  So I texted them.. I only asked for 30 dollars to  be wired to me. I even offered to wire them back 40 on Friday when I got paid again.. They  were slowed to respond.. When they finally did they asked me when I needed it..I told them today...  Guess what I am still waiting on a reply.. It is almost 2 days later... 

So this is bothering me.. If they didn't have it..I understand.. Just tell me NO.. I wouldn't get mad.. I am mad because I never gotten an answer...

For now on I can't help another person, unless I am a freaking Millionaire.. Especially when it comes to money.. I didn't want to ask in the first place.. I just stooped to that level cause I didn't know what else to do...  Am I wrong for being upset....