Need a Release...

I don't know if this is because the lack of Sex I've been having or what.. My mind and body is going through some major crazy motions.. I never in my life felt like this until the last few months...

I am no long dealing with Heaven, because he just got to much shyt with him. I can never understand where he is coming from, so I walked away..

Now I no longer have a sex partner and I am about to flip my lids... I have my toys and what not, but I am getting sick of it.. I need body to body contact.. I never went this long since I was in my 20's when I was soul searching..

I was talking to my homegirl last night and I was telling her about my lack of sex..  She said she is going through the same thing herself.  She said she wants to meet someone that has the same drive as she does.. She is in a relationship that she isn't getting it as much and they are still in their 20's..
Now me on the other hand.. I am in my mid 30's and I am not ready to slow down... I just hate going through the point of trying to met and date all over again just to get some.. Damn it Heaven, I swear I can beat his ass right now...

I believe the older I get the worst my hormones are. I can be sitting and a random thought comes to mind and boom,  I am about to nut on myself.. I also can just be walking and the same thing happens again.. Just last night I was talking to someone via FB and he was saying things he been wanting to tell me the last few years.. I was so close to telling him to come to my house.. I mean it is getting that bad.. I try to remain hopeful and this should pass and I won't think no more about the need to feel some intimacy...


It seems that since my Sex Life is dry.. My body and mind is remaining overflowing with juices..  I need a release in my near future...