I tried to forget the things that two individuals done to me. It has been close to 8 years since this had happened. First of all the trust has never been regained.. To this day I haven't even begin to really open up to them again. I don't even like the company of one.
Me and my cousin are playing the game on Facebook. I am helping her do a catering job on Cafe World... Bam.. To my surprise it is my ex sending her a message on FB... See back years ago, I was dating a guy. I did like him a lot. I won't call it love but hey we were close (I thought so anyway).. Well the two of them started sneaking behind my back. Yea they were dating.. I kinda knew and had that gut feeling. I was waiting for the day it all came to light. This had went on for months. The two of them started acting funny with me. So one night she got mad at him. Me and him went out and she couldn't take it anymore. So she told me. I was more mad at the fact that it went on behind my back. You know I felt it, but I feel they should have told me.
Years later me and him became friends via FB.. I mean I have seen him a few times before FB.. It was his cousin that told me he was on FB. Like I said I forgave him. So happens he finds her on my friend's list and added her. He promised me years ago that he would never contact her again. He said it wasn't worth it.
Well I had logged on to her account for her. She wanted me to take the dishes off the stove. I never snoop. It just so happened to showed the message to the side of the screen.. He was telling her how fine she was and wanted to know did she know it. All that shyt just popped back up.. I mean seriously. I am really mad. I don't even know why though.. With them it was a sex thing. He had and is never going to leave the woman he is with now. They have kids and I believe he is married. See when he was cheating with US.. I didn't know he also had someone else. I got played you are right. This was the 2nd time also from him.. We also dated in the mid 90's and he cheated on me then.
So people wonder why it is so hard for me to trust. I can't trust family, friends, even strangers.. I forgave the both of them. Hell I have forgave her more than once. She also did this to me before and after this one I am talking about now.. It is going to take time again to get this off my brain.. Damn, I am never logging back unto that account for her.. No telling what I will witness again..
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That's jacked up. I'd still be whoopin ass...forgiveness or not. No man or family is worth your unhappiness. I say if she wants to be the one chick that is devaluing herself being with this dude again, I wouldn't even warn her about it. Sometimes you can't tell grown folks shit and just let her ass learn the hard way. I know it had to hurt, but lookin at the situation in the bigger picture, he did you a favor. Continue to do you.
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