Why? ( a random Post)

I am at the point to where I got a lot of changes to be made.. I just trying to keep my head up and stay in my happy place.. I just hate being pushed on the daily..  I am still trying to understand why I let people push my buttons.. 

Just the other day.. My ex.. I swear he is on some shyt right now.. I think he is a lonely human being.. I already don't trust him. He has a track record with me. It seems he is always trying to hit up my friends.. It was a point and time where he was trying to screw one of my friends.. Well anyhoo.. I tried to remain friends with person. We were friends before we dated..   One day logging on to Facebook, I get about 5 messages from some of my female friends on my list.. (this is why my list is blocked to this day)... They were fussing about why in the hell is he trying to add them.. See they know our issue..  So I kindly told him, my friends are NOT your friends.. So you know he gets mad.. He feels that it is the web.. But I told him he must lost sight of what Facebook was about.. I told him they don't like him.. So he agreed and said that he would back off.. Low and Behold.. The bastard did it again..  Going around waiting to see who post to my statuses.. What in Da Hell?  This is becoming embarrassing. My friends are starting to ask questions again...  I tell you.. If you can't find your own friends then you have a problem.. 

I just got a text from another busta... "It was it is OVER.." I looked at it all funny and what not.. I was like when was it EVER anything..  I mean dude we are friends.. If you feel the need to end our friendship, shoot go right ahead.. Ise don't care.. One less person to irk my nerves.. I am like come on get serious, grow some balls...

See I hate that people try to push me.. I don't think that I am going to change my views or my actions. I just wish they stop thinking that I am going to do so.. 

 I am moody.. I am a smart-ass (when I want to be).. I also treat people the way they treat me.. I will never be a push over.. I tell you what I like, and if you can't handle it.. Then oh well.. Move on...